Lately I’ve been making some big decisions. I’ve been making some choices that impact my future. It’s scary, and I’ve been nervous. I’ve really had to step out of my comfort zone, which is, well, sort of, uncomfortable for me.
I’ve had to interact with people in positions of authority and that, frankly, scares me a little. It’s not that they are scary as people, but their position intimidates me. I’m afraid of talking to them, of putting myself out there, and of being told, “thanks, but no thanks.”
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I’ve always struggled with rejection. Years of struggling with it leaves me feeling vulnerable when I have to step out there. Always in the back of my mind there’s a fear of rejection. An irrational fear that if they say no, it means somehow that I’m not worthy.
All of this is to say that I’ve been struggling lately. I’ve been having trouble sleeping. It’s a battle. I’ve had to make major decisions and step out in faith, knowing that no matter what this person of authority’s conclusion is of me, that it doesn’t mean I’m not worthy. It doesn’t mean that there is something wrong with me. It just means that it’s not the right time or situation.
It’s hard to let go of control, hard to say, “Please help me.” It’s hard to say when we feel weak and vulnerable.
But, God asks us to let go, to entrust our fears and our plans to him. To rest in him and to seek him in the trials of life. To recognize that he is with us even as we step out in faith and face our fears. Slowly, he begins to show us that a lot of our fears are lies, that day in and day out, we live out of lies rather than the truth of our security in Christ.
As I embark on this new journey, as I step out in faith, I feel like I’ve just jumped out of a plane, sky diving for the first time. I’m free falling and terrified. And yet, I have to stop and remember: I’m not jumping alone. I’m strapped to an experienced jumper…I’m strapped to Jesus and he is guiding me. He is with me.
Well, as I jump, as I trust God, I realize that I’m not free falling, and I’m not alone. Although it feels like I’m falling, I am safely secured to Jesus, and he will see me through this experience. I am strapped to Jesus, sky diving for the first time, and learning to trust, learning to let go, knowing that I am safe and that he is there with me. I will not fear. He is faithful.
Are you going through something that feels like you’re free falling? What does trust in God look like in your life?
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Rejection is tough! Turn to the one who will never leave you or forsake you.
I know! It’s hard to remember though. It always takes me a while to realize that when I am dragging my feet, I’m usually afraid of rejection of some sort. It takes realizing this to remind me to turn to Jesus, rather than trusting in myself or in others’ opinions of me.